Why doesn't he notice me? Why can't he pry his eyes away from his game for half a second to see that I'm depressed, stressed, overwhelmed... I don't know what we're going to do. Bills... too many bills. I am so lost right now. I'm trying to find a job, have been, but nothing's coming up. Still waiting on an email from someone about something, but that hasn't come in yet. Speaking of, neither has my package. I rather want that package. I'm not having a good day. At all. -cry- And he doesn't notice. Is it that he doesn't notice, or that he doesn't care? -sigh- I'm in my emotionally dead stage right now. So no tears right now, though I feel them pressing on me. I feel the anger, on the edge. Distant, but there. I want to be creative, but I have too much—and yet, not enough—going on in my head. Of course, he doesn't have a working computer, so he will likely never read this. I just wish he wouldn't always ignore me when I'm upset or depressed. -sigh- I don't know what else to say.
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Randi